Kenley Boo has been showing me very noticeable signs recently, especially in this past week. I have been seeing angel numbers more than I ever have, which are double digit numbers (44.44 for example). One day I ordered a pizza and the total came to a double digit number in dollars and cents. I went to the store a few days later and the same thing happened, the total came to another double digit number with the same amount in dollars and cents. I think it was that same day, my boyfriend and I were watching a movie and I paused it, the time the movie stopped was yet again double digit numbers with the same seconds. When we were sitting on the couch before going to bed, I checked the time and it was another set of double digits that read the same time in hours and seconds. I have seen this happen in the past week six different times. My boyfriend told me to get a lottery ticket and I did on Wednesday. I didn’t end up hitting, but I will continue to play those numbers in the future.
I’ve seen a few more signs from Kenley as well, like a cardinal two days in a row. I’ve also been finding pennies. I had a penny stuck to the bottom of my foot the other day, then I found another one on the ground yesterday. I always keep the Pennie’s I find and put them in this little bag and store them with the rest of my “Kenley pennies” that I have found since losing her.
She has been on my mind a lot. I think about her every single day, but this time of year is the hardest. It starts with Mother’s Day, then following Memorial Day (the time around Memorial Day is when her symptoms started with Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever). Following that comes the worst month of the year. June. I dread June so much, as June 4th was the day my world fell apart at the seams. That was the last day I saw my precious baby girl. That was the day she was called home. The whole month of June I am a complete mess. I feel like a robot, just going through the motions, not really knowing how to function like a normal human being that hasn’t experienced losing a child. It’s like I’m here physically during that time, but my brain feels like mush, or that of the tin man in the Wizard of Oz, “If I only had a brain.”
I was sitting on my couch, just scrolling through my Facebook feed, when I felt something crawling on my arm. It tickled, but I knew it was a bug so I wanted to get it off of me. I flicked it off when I saw it, realizing as it was flying in the air and what I assume, landing in my rug, I realized it was a TICK. It happened so fast and I hurried up and grabbed my vacuum to try and suck the nasty thing up, because I didn’t want it to harm myself, my daughter, boyfriend, or puppy. It had little legs that curled and an ugly body. It made me itchy, knowing it was crawling on me. Those things are disgusting and the infected ones are filled with fatal diseases. I did not feel it bite me, I’m just glad I wasn’t sleeping when it was crawling on me, because it might’ve done just that.
I advise everyone to be careful as the warmer weather is approaching us and more people will be spending time outside. Be very vigilant when it comes to these nasty creatures, as they fear nothing and they’re not afraid to affect people for the rest of their lives, whether it be medical conditions or fatal situations like my sweet Kenley Boo.