Dear Kenley Boo,
Eight months without you… another dagger to the chest. It’s like I’ve been floating on a dark cloud with blurred vision, as much as I try to focus my eyes, the only thing I can see is black, like I’ve fallen into a hole with nothing to grip onto…
Aileah talks about you often, she tells me about how you whisper so softly in her ear every single day. She tells me how her friends at school will see her holding her arm by her side with her open hand as if she is holding your hand. When her friend Natasha asked her, “Who’s hand are you holding?” She said, “My Little sister Kenley’s.” She tells me about how you sit with her at lunch, and how you play with her and her friends at recess, how they say to you, “Come on, Kenley,” because Aileah’s friends can see you too. She tells me about how you lay with her at night. When she came home after school after getting her news of Student Council, she told me you let her know you told her liked her posters. She had to have pictures on those boards with you in them, there was no other way she wanted it.
When she was doing her Valentine’s cards for her fellow classmates, she decided to make one for you too that reads on one side: “To Kenley Boo” and the other side says: From “Mommy, Daddy, and 1st sister.” I asked her what the 1st sister meant, because she had never said anything like that before and she told me, “I’m her #1 sister,” with the biggest grin on her face.
While placing the Valentine’s Day card she made you by some of you memorials we have set out for you, my eyes couldn’t help but to fill up with tears. Aileah looked at me and said, “Mom, why is there tears in your eyes?,” before I could say any words, she gave me the biggest hug and squeezed me so tight, then rubbed her hands across my back. Without me saying a word, she knows I needed that more than ever. “I just really miss her,” is all I could say, along with thanking her for that much needed hug.
She misses you so much sweet Kenley Boo, and you showing her definite ways you are always by her side, brings a little light through the darkness in the clouds, that don’t seem to part most days.
Until we see you again sweet girl, we’ll keep your memory alive. We love you Kenley Boo, our beautiful angel baby in the sky!